Such is not the world I want to live in. I want my world to be governed by the Lord. I want to submit my will to Him and be able to hear Him and follow His guidance. I've learned over the years that I don't know much of anything, on my own, and I'm not too proud to admit that.

I was sitting in my lawn chair at the park, thinking of these things. It seems God has given us a seed of a ministry (not about casting lots, by the way) and the tendency would be for me to force it to grow, somehow. I thought perhaps I should go out and pound on doors to say to people, "I've got a message from God. Come hear it." Maybe I should start a church, advertise it. Maybe we should make a CD with an example of Eva and me talking and singing so that we could send them to churches and be invited to speak and sing at them.

Whenever I get into a mode of self-promotion, a fatigue falls over me. I get weary even thinking about this type of thing. Nevertheless, I wanted to know whether God wanted me to jump into our ministry with both feet and self-promote all we wanted to.

I closed my eyes and prayed fervently, "What would you have us do, Lord?" Then I framed a question, as I slowly turned the quarter over and over in my hands. "Lord, do you want us to wait on You totally?"

I felt the Holy Spirit surge through my body as I submitted totally to God's will through this toss. The quarter flew up into the air, flipping over and over, and came down, catching my index finger and bouncing off it, landing on the thin arm rest of my lawn chair right next to my bottle of water, heads (Yes). I looked at the quarter, heads up, next to my water and the thought came to me, "Yes, wait on the Lord that you might have the water that Jesus promised the Samarian lady at the well, the water that, if we drink it, we will never thirst again."

I loved that thought and attributed it to the Holy Spirit. In this phase of my life, however, I had recently established a rule that if I drop the coin, I pick it up and toss again. So, since this was dropped, I tossed again, asking if what I was thinking was God's will. Yes.

Nature of God: I love this illustration. I loved the coin tipping off my finger, landing, heads, next to my water on a thin arm rest, not bouncing off. I love God being totally in charge, setting up everything, bringing people we need into our lives, moving people we no longer should associate with, out of our lives. I loved the idea that God will bring all the people He wants to hear His message that He's given through me, when He is good and ready and my heart is pure. I loved that His answer was, "Wait on the Lord." There is no need for me to be anxious about things. In God's good time, He will bring the people we need to help us and everything will come to its fruition.

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