I prayed and asked the Lord in all sincerity if I should print out and send the letter. I got a “No.” I removed the obvious error (the “clever” part) and asked again. Again, I got a “No.” Perplexed, I went to my prayer chair, tears forming in my eyes and a strong sense that I wanted to know why I was not getting permission to print out and send the letter. I remember closing my eyes and having a blank mind, free from my own ramblings. Then I remember saying to God, “It's mighty quiet in here.” I said that because it seemed as if only I was in the chamber of my mind. God was silent.

Just then, in a flash, I was given the portion of the letter that needed to be extracted. I had forgotten that I had mildly threatened legal action, or rather, insinuated that possibility to the recipients of this letter and God would have none of that. In fact, if anyone else were going through what I was going through, it would have been entirely acceptable to make the threat. Nevertheless, God was clear. Do not go there. It's an attempt to manipulate and control rather than leaving it in His capable hands.

I was in awe. God had revealed a part of the letter that I had forgotten and asked me to remove it. In utter joy, I got up from my prayer chair, and removed the offending portion from the letter. Was it ready now?

God said Yes.

Nature of God: I have mentioned before that God has used the coin flip many times in the editing process for my writing. I especially enjoyed God's Holy Spirit tying in His Word in my heart, with the flip of the coin. We want to remember that He is not limited in His ability to communicate to us. The more we think we know, however, the more we cannot hear Him.

Over a period of time, in which my trust in this matter has increased because I have witnessed God actually using this tool for me, I have been able to rely on His answer. Consequently, when the flip gave me tails (No), my heart ached to know why. I reached into my heart to God in a mighty way, sincerely wanting to know what was wrong. God, then, in a mini-revelation, revealed the part of the letter that needed to be removed. I had not, at that moment, remembered I had written that part.

With tears of joy and gratitude, I removed the offending part of the letter, and this time, upon asking if the letter was ready, flipped the coin and got God's approval. I want to urge all who read this, to understand that I am not someone who uniquely has a direct line to God. That would be insane to think that way. I am, perhaps more than some, hungering and thirsting for His knowledge and His wisdom in all things. I don't just flip a coin every chance I get. I realize the importance of completely removing any sense of investment that I might make, in the results, and thoroughly give the situation to God for His resolution, not mine. In this story, necessarily vague as it is, I enjoyed God's interface with the flipping coin, in which He gave me, at my prayerful request from my heart, the actual text that needed to be edited out of the letter. Praise God that He cares about every big thing in our lives—and the little things, too.

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